Most of my life, most people have been afraid of me. I’ve come to understand, as I have been reminded frequently, I’m bigger and smarter than most people. Sounds crazy but the constant message I received from an early age is that I somehow, against the laws of perceived nature, grew past the size which has been allotted for females. Oops. Did I grow past 6 feet? My fucking bad.
I’ve always dreaded that look people get when they realize that I could be a lot smarter than they happen to be. It is a look of hatred and fear and it is unmistakable. All hope of authentic communication ends in that moment.
I also learned very early, that if I were to thrive, I would have to get the fuck over it.
So I did, for the most part, and I began looking for people that were excited when they discovered that I could be smarter than they were and I looked for people who excited me with their intelligence and creativity. My life has been a journey of finding those people.
Never apologize for being. Apologizing for your very existence is the apology that is expected of the psychopathically controlled society. If you are exceptional, in any way, you will be punished for it in either subtle or not so subtle ways. You will also be a constant target for the pathologically insecure.
Your exceptional qualities are what the control grid works to minimize for the sake of controlling the masses. That is why stupid and talentless people are famous and pathological insecurity is rampant. Nurturing your exceptional gifts is an act of “consciousness insurgency” against the psychopathic control grid.
The world is starving for your exceptional gifts.